I’m always tired. Chronically tired. I sleep too much and I’m still tired. It’s nothing physical – at least, I’ve been tested for everything.
Two revelations today:
1. I’m going to keep praying for relief. God healed me from my depression (through medication, but I count it as being healed because I am no longer SUFFERING and I’ve tried plenty of medications which didn’t work) after many, many years. I don’t know why he waited so long. But he did and I have to believe he can heal me from this too. I’d prefer for it to happen right now and I don’t know why we have to wait on these things.
2. I have a lot of resentments. Many, many resentments. I can’t stand injustice and I mean everything from someone treats me slightly badly to slavery and sex trafficking. It gets in my head and I can’t get it out. I obsess, I get angry, I want to yell and convince anyone around me. Maybe it’s not the best way to deal with it. Maybe it’s exhausting me. To tell you the truth, I don’t know another way to deal with it. Maybe it’s time to figure one out.