Just Take a Hot Bath

As I’ve been feeling better, I’ve been appreciating certain things more often.  I went to a lake on a hot day and floated in the water by myself.  I got a new pillow and am totally enjoying the softness and comfort of it.  For some reason, it’s reminding me of some “strategies” that people used to give me when I was really depressed.  I was often told to take a hot bath because that would make me feel better.  There were other suggestions too but that’s the one that sticks in my head for some reason.

I think these people meant well but they obviously had no idea what bad condition I was in.  I was desperately trying to keep myself going, while I wanted to die, I wanted be erased, I wanted to never have existed.  I was considering electroshock therapy.  A bath just wasn’t going to do it.

I know it’s hard to understand if you haven’t been there.  It’s even hard for me to understand now when I’m not in that place – it’s hard to remember.  But it’s a bit like asking someone to fight AIDS with an aspirin.

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One Response to Just Take a Hot Bath

  1. LOL… my dad tells me to eat healthy breakfasts and get more exercise! Yeah, that would be good for ANYONE, but it won’t cure depression!

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