I went out to dinner last night with my relatively new (and really wonderful) boyfriend and a friend from teaching and her girlfriend. This friend had been supportive in my freaking out about getting to know someone in a dating situation thing and is also a really cool person and one of the best teachers I’ve ever known so I wanted them to meet each other.
My teacher friend told lots of stories about how crazy our job was – she came my last year in the classroom and just left that school last month. Then she said something that surprised me – or at least I think she did.
I think she said that I was one of the reasons she went into teaching. She had been working as a salesperson for educational software and our school bought it. She came and set it up and told me last night for the first time that she was watching how I interacted with my students and that’s part of why she went into teaching.
She said that when she came to work at our school a couple of years later, I was like a celebrity to her. She had specific examples of what I did with the kids and how I talked to them that she admired and they are things I totally remember.
I don’t, however, remember a lot of details from what she said last night because I was, while being incredibly honored, so uncomfortable with someone giving me this kind of praise. It felt undeserved and uncomfortable and I just had trouble hearing it. To the point where I actually can’t remember much.
I think I’d like to get to the point where I can hear about how great I am. It makes me sad that I’m so much more comfortable and accustomed to hearing about my flaws.