I wrote here about gratitude and how hard it is for me. This is for several reasons. People often held up gratitude as an antidote for my depression, when I needed far more than that, and that is one of the biggest reasons why I am so resistant to it.
I’m trying again. I haven’t been depressed for several years. I have a lot to be grateful for! I have a new (well, not so new) job that I love. I have a great boyfriend. I live in a good place. Etc. But it’s still hard to be grateful!
I’m working on it. I started a gratitude jar and mean to put one thing in it every day. I think I’ve done two. But I have noticed a couple of times when I notice in the moment that something is beautiful or enjoyable, so that’s encouraging. I’ll keep trying.