Does anyone else have a serious problem appreciating down time? Or an inability to relax?
I’m great at it on vacation. I can lie in the sun (or actually in the shade near the sun), read, knit, float in warm water, linger over meals, and relax to my heart’s content. But at home, it’s very different.
Because of the work I do (school-year focused) and the fact that I’m self-employed, I generally have a lot more down time in the summer. And let me tell you, I am really bad at enjoying down time. (Aside from sleeping. I’m great at sleeping, but one should only do that so much).
Instead of thinking, “Oh, I have a few free hours before I have to work again! I could go for a walk or read a book or have some tea!” I go straight to, “I can’t believe I’m losing money by not working in those hours. I’m just wasting time.”
Why does down time equate to wasting time in my mind?
I live in a beautiful place. Some of things I could do when I don’t have clients include:
-eating out at many many delicious restaurants nearby (many of which are inexpensive)
-having an nice cup of tea
-walking the dog
-knitting or reading on the beach
And yet what I find myself doing is just sitting around wasting time on the computer or napping excessively or just bemoaning the fact that I’m not making money right now.
How are you with down time? Any ideas? Does it trigger anyone’s depression or anxiety?